a play of emotions



said and done

recovered speedily after prayer from my dear caregroup!
sore throat healed
flu, almost gone.
thank you Lord (:

feeling really refreshed the whole day
never did i imagine myself to work on the BC assignment for the entire day.
felt as though it was a waste of time, as i didnt manage to study.
oh well, at least bc its all done now.
thank you dewen for parthering with me through the whole bc process
thank you Lord for the day (:

i was thinking of this friend today and somehow i hoped you spent some time talking to us.
maybe it never did bothered anyone else but it seems to bother me.

haha. all well and ready for the week ahead.
e x a m s are here-next week!
i am gonna trust the Lord,
grow my faith to a greater measure Lord! (:


all my days, i love jesus. (:



imprints

did you put desires, dreams and aspirations in my heart?
the rule to be faithful with little. (:
yet, dare to dream.

i miss jess ALOT! (:


a word of enouragement untied all the knots within.
the world always seems better after a good cry.
a rainbow at the finishing line.



walk away

i am talking to myself -again. funny habit that never seems to go away. happens more often now when i feel extremely bored about what i am doing, alone and stressed. oh well, except now knowing whatever i said, God is listening. hehe. *waves* God, i think i am gonna chop myself up for slacking, feeling restless and constantly being unproductive.


-wait
i feel like screaming now.
pulling out my hair.
keep mum for a day.

totally not okay, on a Monday afternoon.

this is emotional. if you must, ignore this entry.

i wouldn't deny the seemingly strange joy within
that never fade in the midst of the storm.
powerful indeed.
oh well, i have no idea why.





swept away

after this week, i realised a need to do housekeeping for my heart. haha. dig out all the dirt, take out all the trash i swept under the carpet and transfer them to the garbage! so many things to change and improve on, sometimes i just wondered, God will a lifetime be enough for me to be transformed? every single day, i discover new things. every single time i confessed that i need more of your grace. Best bit of it all, you always understood me, all of me, from the inside out-my feelings, my worries, my struggles.
I am always like that little child, with teary eyes, saying- oh Lord, how can it be that you knew me. 2 weeks is not a long time before all it starts. you know what, Lord i am clinging onto you.

swept away by love, grace and mercy.

perfect love drives away all fear.

yes. i have moved on :)

Psalm 139:16
All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.



no whys

after it all, i come to understand that everything that happened has a greater purpose in it and yes if its God's will for things to turn out this way, i embrace it. Man's wisdom is indeed foolishness compared to God's wisdom. There is no way to understand his divine plans but as always whatever it is, God's plans are always good for those who love Him (:

Jesline in training-to adjust and adapt all over again.

on a lighter note,
i met up with my sheep today!
Through the sharing session, i just learnt the importance to learn, to love, to account, to teach, to set a model uncompromisingly. 2 months is not a long time, but i am convicted that we will grow to a higher notch. (:

hmm, just wanna end of-

with a heart to give thanks.

Jesus, for who you are, for your grace, for your mercy and guidance over the last four months. THANKYOU (:

it's all anew now, i am anticipating for you !

oh yes, vanessa thanks for being with me no matter you are near or far (:
love and miss you to bits.



things that make my day

first smile :)

finaaalllyyy got this birthday card! yay!

second smile :)

a photograph from ruiqi.
had a great time out with ruiqi !
thanks sister, i love your company and the warm fuzzy girl talks.

third smile :)

cards. exams upcoming.
i guess at this hour. we need these!
i just felt encouraged writing them.

the big thing tmr is caregroup!
combine cg is the best thing ever, i can hardly wait! (:



remember when..

feels like so many things are stacking on me, some are new, some are pushing for me to adapt, some are telling me that they don't need my attention, some said leave these undone and you will be dead.

am i thinking too much yet again?

oh well, i am in a state of feeling all alone.
stressed, worried, fearful..
wondering if God, you are going to help me/us soon?
still faithfully waiting in trust.

then He reminded me of all the things he has done in my life.
over the past 9 months.
He asked me if i remembered the whens- the times when He never fails.

Ignited my faith.

Lord, i know all will be done in your time.
Give me the extra dosage of strength,courage, faith and wisdom. Lead me in this path.
When you are all i have, i know you are all i need.

it's not about me.
it's all about you and all that you have done.

jiayou! (:

romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.



greatest love

i used to believe that God can't be the only solution.
Tell you what, i was wrong.
Maybe like me then, you were wrong too. :)

i am part of tjc now! (:
15, end may.
lets all take ownership!

thinking-
it's a step of faith is all it takes to move out of your comfort to serve in a greater measure.
I always pray that Lord, if you would, you will use me. It's a privilege to love your people, to serve your people, to work towards a vision together.

all for your name.

all that may glorify you.

all that blesses your heart.

I'll give all that's within, out of a heart of gratitude, i know you are working in my life. (:


come on, i need to start studying soon.
how abt sunday?



gives thanks (:

everyday is a blessing but today is a special blessing.
hmm. my first Good Friday, spent 11am to 730pm in east RC.
unit meeting, farewell, caregroup, then singing session (:
took a glance around at the different people,
thank God that He placed me here- in a spiritual family.

for the past week,
happy birthday to me.
BIG thank you to Jasmine, Jiaying and Jolyn for the pleasant surprise.
popping by just for the birthday song and birthday cake.
The big and things, the big and small ways, i know in my heart that you all loved me.
Thank you for this 7/8 years friendship! ((:

BIG thank you to my dear caregroup.
Although it's only a tradition kind of Hope birthday celebration, thank you guys for remembering. (: I will always remember the times of laughter, times of tears and all that we share. We are bonded more than the times we spent together.
We are bonded my Jesus' blood.

BIG thank you to decor mates.
So many miracles in the middle of the night! God's way of saying He is with us. (:
Thanks for the time, taohua+egg tart and youtiao+ birthday song!

BIG thank you to schoolmates.
Jess, i can't count the number of times she said happy birthday to me that day.
It's just many many times! haha. (:
Debbie is always so appreciative of me!
your messages make me smile (:
Daniel, i wished you had a guitar then. haha.
thank you for time and birthday song! (:
Junyao, i know your efforts!
you did tonnes for the day! thank you (:
Dewen, i hope you are around. (:

oh dear, i hope i have some pictures. :(

thank you Lord.
greatest gift of my life, your presence and your touch!



my story



i was at tecman for 2hrs today.
what a way to spent an afternoon.
i thought this book came aptly.
so many things in life,
sometimes i cant deny i feel worn-out.
realised some very unpleasant and scary things.
but again, they are pointers for growth. (:

you can't run away from expectations.
sometimes..
you admit you ask alittle too much from yourself
your family's support can become a source of burden
people expecting you to be just like you always are.

you can't run away but with can balance and manage.
afterall, the bottomline is live for God not your yourself or others.

say no to 3 things.
people-pleaser
perfection
comparison

instead practise 3 things.
be a God-pleaser
excellence
thank God for how you are created to be (:




april

a conversation with pingping last week.
i come to realise how much i am accustomed to your presence.
sometimes, in the midst of it all, it felt as though you were not with me at all.
in fact, it wasn't that you left.
it was the endless pit of longing for your touch,
that made me all hungry.
More of you, is never too much.

yes, God.
More of you in my life. (:

thinking-
1 20!
2 reflections

daddy, remind me why.

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