fall asleep in aloy's car, catch up with jess + watched simpsons, made maureen's card, celebrated maureen's birthday, organic products tour with j2back, decor with papa and stephen, cg dinner after service @ taiwan delight :)

changing climates makes me depressed. reading national geographic, watching the news and seeing the non-stop rain in Singapore, i came to one conclusion that is nothing is going to help the earth. maybe we can slow down the process of damaging the earth if and only if all the world took part in it but we can never stop damaging the earth. the process as i see is irreversible.

when the world starts to point finger at God asking Him why natural disasters occurs, i think we should ask ourselves instead. isn't these the works of man? we contributed to the occurance of these disasters. i think the culprit is us.

globalisation, consumerism, expanding economises, growing populations, global warming, changing climates, deforestation, desertification, natural disasters, pollutions, water scarcity.. i don't know, you name it.

it's just cause and effect of demands and supply, human greed and comfort.

this is natural's way of crying to God.

In this messed-up world, where anywhere and everything is a mess, God is the answer.



breakaway


i am off for a long BREAK from blogging :D
tell me if you miss me. haha.



upside down joy


shepherding with ah jas was cancelled today.
i got an unexpected buddy for roaming the malls with me today- that's jiaying :)
failed to meet up with my dear friend jess even though she was only @ centrepoint but i am glad we exchanged messages through the day. :)
had dinner with jesse at the boring s11
the day ended with an extraordinary amt of sharing with jesse
missed decor. =/

the week was awful.
it was one of the most packed week ever.
next week i am not going to say yes to any activities except the usuals plus project meets.
one of the few weeks when the devil attacks full-blows. in response to his attacks i can only say- yes, i am not at all strong but my God is. He is 2 steps ahead of me and the cushion behind me. He is faithful. :) I am a mere human, a product from dust on the ground. I struggle but I am protected. The battle is the Lord's because He is with me. Victory is on my side!

on a good note,
i have discovered areas to be more serving here. It's actually doing the things i used to do but yet to be doing recently. plus, i have a new found love that's to visit book stores or library back to back. maybe someday i shall have a huge bookshell in my room. :) the stack of books on my desk is piling up even more now. :)


pictures speak more.

project mates



jiaming, aloysius, bryan, karmariah, candy, me


me and jesse
jesse, i am serious about our parthership :)
thanks for sharing.


the little boy who steals my heart.
he is just in his own little world, playing, exploring, while his mum is shopping.
jiaying wants to kidnap him :)
too adorable, i can only say you see joy in kids.


another week is over,
dear friend i miss you.

tmr's ess.
jiayou everyone!



sorry that i am just messed up in every way.
the faithful one who still leads and holds my hand.
im going through the book of samuel now.
God is speaking.
i need to hold on tighter.
storm is raging but the rainbow is at the other end.

dear God, whenever my weaknesses show, your perfection and strength is manifested.

you know,
i could be better.

refining in process.
no hurries.

in God's best timings.



love is a commitment

i just realised my week is packed.
i tell you, i find my days amazing when it's filled with people.
not because i am particularly outgoing or sociable.
i am surely not a people person.
but i value relationships. :)
we build relationships.
we grow and nurture them.
we put time into realationships because that's what life is about.

dear daddy God,
i love you.
because of you, i will.

i had my first proj meet today.
the hunkies are totally brainy people.
more brainy in their own ways.
aloysius,byran and jiaming O:
you impressed me today with your brains. congrats. :)



your love heals

i typed a post which i failed to post up in the end because I guess it will stir many emotions, cause much disturbance and concerns.

so there here's the more light-hearted post.

anyway, alpha camp was great.
i love the fellowship.
thank God for showing his faithfulness so evidently even though the smallest things like keeping the weather good for all activities, for protection from mosquite bites during this period when dengue cases are high, keeping us safe and sending a tcs van to fetch us from pasir ris park bus stop back to the interchange for free. :)

yay. sing praise.

the tears that fall for all hurts, open rotting wounds, old scars, present struggles and flaws.
I was shamed of my unworthiness. Your big hands of grace that i never dared to hold.
I struggled time and again to hold that hand which stretches from up above to me.
sorry, I could be better.

help me to know from the deep recesses of my heart-
that i am not forsaken but forgiven.
your love will heal.
God's love heals from the inside out.

dear xxxx,
those words hurt a great deal today.
i wasn't angry
i just hoped those words could be taken back.
but it's all done now.
you can't take it back.



through the window

i have a big pile of books to read now.
thanks to some contributions frm lib and van :)
thanks to jesse for spending time with me today!

i know this is not good but it just seems this way.
i'm not prepared and i don't want to be prepared,
because there don't seem to be a cause for it.
plus, i haven't pack up and i haven't informed my parents formally.
oh well, reminder to myself- camp's tmr.

if you are a fellow servant..

i thank you for always praying for others
i thank you for always living beyond yourself
i thank you for being faithful to your calling
i thank you that because there is you
there is more vessels carrying Christ's blessing and hope. :)
my mum was prayed for by her friend yesterday.
this is so, woahs.

wait, before i go.
THANK YOU, God.

i miss jialing, mei feng, jolyn, adeline, yong jiaying, chrystal!
just meet up SOON.

they all wrote names on the window panes, but i only want to see what You wrote.
i'm your beloved, your child.



every human frailty

meet-ups and catch-ups.
they make me breathless.
it feels as though everybody wants a slice of me.
suddenly, the thought of calling home is comforting.
make a phonecall to the future heavenly home,
talk to the one who is abounding with love, grace and mercy.
hear the sound of peace.
i can't help it but in the midst of it all, i miss God.
if there are less slices of God in my life, i struggle more.
you know, im glad i called home.

today. i made the stupidest prayer that i believe, rocked heaven.
God is laughing at me, i guess. =]
oh well, it's ok.
He saw it coming anyway.

vanvan, HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
i m gonna miss the ' 我的钱去哪里?!'
i m gonna miss the scream and run away from the flying insect together
i m gonna miss 笨到~ and 不需.. (plus a haolian face) from you!
i m gonna miss strolling around the whole afternoon doing nothing
i m gonna miss eating messily in front of you
i m gonna miss the long long long sharings.
i m gonna miss the stupid prayer that both you and God will laugh at.
to the funniest budd, God loves you tonnes :)
jiayouuuu!

something is new. a new project group.
i can sense that i will be facing serious peer pressure( not just pressure).
the thing i always tell others, soon to be practiced myself-
dont be the pressured, be the pressure. =]
those who have been keeping watch over me, thank you!
i cant forget the moments when i seemed to have five shepherds in my life. (haha)
its gonna be a mad process.
God, Help Me!

there is no you, when the sun left the horizon.
sunset.
tmr's new, don't forget. :)



close to the heart


Sometimes I totally wished that i could skip a pharse of life. (haha) Maybe just fast forward to the point that I am old then maybe some things that you have to experience when you are at this age could be excluded. Then again, it will minus off a whole load of growth and fun.

I learnt so much about relating recently. I guess this wouldn't have been possible without people who are willing to share, correct and learn together with me :) Thank you.



we belong together

in this spiritual family..
in this family, we are not afflicted by blood but by faith.
God is the Father, all of us are his children.
There is no perfect church because a church is made up of imperfect people.
Imperfect people cannot make a place perfect.
But we understand that-
The same people who make the church messy also make the church meaningful.
After all, people are what God is about.
We must never come to the place where there is not room for one more person.
We must be willing to make a mess to save a life.
Quotes from Erwin Rafael McManus
(from An Unstoppable Force, Flagship Church Resources, 2001)

if anyone at all is looking for perfection, you can't find it here on earth.
heaven is not a place on earth. :)


the imperfect bunch, itching to grow to be like Christ!
step on each other's toes someday
irritate and annoy some other another day
cause we are not perfect
but learning to love and accept every single day
this makes a lovely and loving family. :)

our imperfection does not discredit what Jesus has done on the cross for you and me.

a busy road, the street lamps, awesome companion- that's us. :)



coolest cool.

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends

We'll wish this never ends
(miss you miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep
I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

dont waste your time on me cause you're already the voice in my head.
i miss you, miss you.

blink 182. :)
i have a love for this song for the longest time.
no whys.
the lyrics makes little sense though.
maybe just the beats of the drums and the 'miss-yous' which echoed through the song.



sing over me

i wonder at times, if we should choose to be blunt and truthful afterall.
we didn't choose to hurt others intentionally. nothing is intentional.
however, i guess hurts can't be earsed.
they can only be healed.
the thing is- God never wastes any hurt.
We learn best through pain.

i do think its necessary to be alittle thoughtful and sensitive.
it goes a long way.
relationships with Jesus in the centre is tough.
we learn to accept and love different people, because God does.

oh well. this issue is over.
plus, i dont think i am always this brave.



the weight of this is just.. too much

school started.
life is almost back to the routines.
school life has to be more to this.
i know i am not fulfilling my purpose.
maybe i should stay out of my comfort zone soon.
if candy and kamariah sees this, they will be happy because i miss them.
plus, i really thank jun and dewen for being the kindest to me.
i apprecaite all the kind gestures of making sure i am ok and cheering me up.
i am not at all good with word. when it comes to communication i face barriers.
no matter what.
at the end of the day, i hope we all can forge a better understanding of each other.
its time i clarify and draw my line.


debbie and me =]
we sat down at the bus stop and started sharing.
thanks for being my great listening ear :)
felt a whole load better thereafter.


somebody spoilt my day but there were others who made my day.
one thing stands true, Jesus is always my source of joy deep within.
Others can't possibly see or feel, but you put dancing in my heart. :)
oh yeah, my heart is dancing for you.

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