just so you'll know

if you know me you'll know i love alittle of space to myself, you will know i love to browse my old stuffs, i love to starbucks with Jesus alone, i love to stroll along a not-so busy street with a dear friend or loved one at night. i love to walk with someone home. i love to catch up. that's alot of luxury, to be spending time like that.

today, we had mock-up marketing test. 7 chapters, i studied 2 chapts. Thank God its only a mock test. The good thing is i passed it. (wahaha) however according to bryan (papa), anyone else passed the mock test as well. so that's nothing too surprising about it.

i had lunch with liyi aka buddy! as well as my brothers-junyao and dewen plus lovely new friends elaine, ah lin and mich. so blessed to spend alittle time outside of class together. :)

you know, i didn't finish my food =/ and whenever this happens i miss jeanette! jeanette is another miss ko, vanessa's cousin. never finish food = reminds me of this conversation..

*jesline never finish her food*
jeanette says: jesline, do you know where you'll go if you don't finish your food?
jesline looks at jeanette and shakes her head..
jeanette says: you will go hell.
jesline feels shock O:

however when..
*jeanette never finish her food*
jesline says: jeanette, do you know where you'll go if you don't finish your food?
jeanette looks at jesline, smiles and said.." i'll go home."

anyway, as jesline grows in the Lord, she knows it's not true that she will end up in hell if she doesn't finish her food. plus, i really never not finish my food on purpose. dewen, i really never do it on purpose. :)

jeanette, my MOE days buddy. She always unintentionally uses big staplers, letter opener, and whatever that's in her hands to 'murder' me. She is also a sister in Christ. Anyway, Miss Jesline Singapore Yeo misses you. hehe.


the other miss ko. :)
i am sorry for the letters that never got sent out. haha. thanks for being so understanding. i am glad the long (and expensive) phonecall cheer a sulky girl up. cheers! haha. i will really wish to see david beckham's daughter so he better have one soon. haha. anyway, you got me giggling when i read your email. aloysius ong= rain when he smiles? i told him and he said..

oh well, that's perfectly hilarious. hehe. hope that made you laugh too! anyway, i think anthony will make a good brother :) thank God for putting someone whom you can share stuffs with. take care and be blessed! the letter, i am gonna write it tonight!



ah ying, ah jo and ah bran i miss you all today. seriously, i just thought of you guys. i hope all has been well. :) sms me ok. plus, mr brandon. i realise u are a old school friend whom i have never taken picture with. how can that be? tsktsk.

to end off this long long post. i just wanna share that i read matthew 26 just now. i just thought about what happened, the followers leaving Jesus, Jesus being arrested, Peter saying he doesn't know Jesus. I was reminded about how sometimes we choose to neglect God, yet presence is always with us.Plus, He saved us anyway even knowing how these people will turn away from Him. My God, He is a faithful God. :)

chio, have a good weekend.



beautiful soul


my name is beautiful.
there's no need to fight to make the mirror happy.
i am strong without my own strength.
may you look into my heart and be amazed.
there's no need to find attention
because you call me beautiful.

You make me beautiful
You make me stand in awe
You step inside my heart,
and I am amazed
I love to hear You say
Who I am is quite enough
You make me worthy of love.

Sometimes you felt like you ain't enough, like you could be better, or perhaps like you could live a life not disappointing or hurting anyone. Or maybe some things make you feel ugly or perhaps there is a scar of hurt somewhere you hope someone could mend. To me, there has always been someone who heals me, who makes me holds my pieces of hurt, if you have forgotten i will remind you again that he collects my tears, he stands with me through not-so-fun times. I am not beautiful myself, but he makes me beautiful. He puts perfect love in my heart like i deserve to be loved like this from the start. He believes i can be better everyday. My God does all the above.

If He believes i deserves his love, then i do.
Best deal is, He believes you deserve it too. :)

His love is beautiful, he is a beautiful saviour.

today..
-i realised i am in trouble because i only studied 1 chapt of marketing so far.
-i shared with yilin this very true fact about remembering only caring friends will choose to multiply joy and share pains.
-boiled soup without cooking rice, that's dumb.
-drunk cold milo, because there is no hot water at the moment.
-had caregroup @ smu. :)

and i chat with junhao (no typo errors) every single day on msn. jun aka friendly friend aka champion, while i am jes aka xiaoyu aka dao queen. i am a dao queen, totally hard to believe. ain't smiley ppl suppose to be friendly?

miss ko, i will be awaiting ur call tmr ! :)



where your love dwells

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart for what is yours
Everything I am for your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
-hosanna

many times, i am in the world but not of the world.
at the end, this is, but i won't belong here.
remind me, i want a heart after you.

if it breaks your heart, break mine too.
if you love these beings, i wanna love too.
to love God, is to cherish the things he cherishes. :)

today, i was rather disturbed by the middle figure issue. at least, any being has the right to be angry for the rude act. oh well, but i am angry no more now. the next time, i will walk away.

but make sure there are no next times.
(even though promises are meant to be broken)

THANK YOU LORD for..
best things today..
jess is extra hyper.
jiaming is also extra extra hyper.
marketing project has progressed.
went for dao huay @ geylang with aloy and candy
aloy sent me back to tampines. :)

best things yesterday..
-God reminded me Psalm 1:1-3 three times! through differnt people and ways.

Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked
or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers.

But his delight is in the law of the LORD,
and on his law he meditates day and night.

He is like a tree planted by streams of water,
which yields its fruit in season
and whose leaf does not wither.
Whatever he does prospers.

-An answered prayer for liyi. dear buddy, jiayou!
-Christina joining caregroup, now serving in her church.
- studied 1 chapt of marketing.
-my ex-cl shanrui texted me to JIAYOU.
-michel made sth for me, thank you brother!


yay. say you feel happy, bacause there are so many things to be thankful for :)



boring stuff


it is boring stuff,
when everyone is distracted.
when somebody suggested we should change plans.
when you realise turning back will mean back to square one.
when you realise you are dead meat if you don't
when no one knows anything.
oh well. we blow it, big time.

messed up.

i am not very happy, i tell you. =(



a new heart


Psalm 51:10
Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

where the grace of God is missed, bitterness is born.
But where the grace of God is embraced, forgiveness flourishes.
The longer we walk in the garden,
the more likely we are to smell like flowers.
The more we immerse ourselves in grace,
the more likely we are to give grace.
-in the grip of grace, max lucado

Grace is so illogical yet so rational in the light of love.
God is the dad who does not sneer at his childish kids, the dad who does not shake his head at his kids who have fallen, the dad who forgives mistakes and always welcome kids who choose to leave home back home again. In the grip of his grace, I learn again.



at the cross


Oh Lord,
You search me
You know my ways
Even when i fail you
I know you love me
Your holy presence surrounding me
In every season
I know you love me

You go before me
You shield my ways
Your hand upon me
I know you love me

At the cross
I bow my knees
where your blood was shed for me
There is no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now

My God. He is patient with me. He trusts me and yet provides me more than enough grace when i fail. Seasons change. He remains the same. He walks the darkest vallies and shelter me from harm. Above all, He loves me.

Trying periods ain't party hours. They stretch you abit further than what you think you can withstand. Best part is, you recognised that you are affirming what you have learnt. In simple terms, God is testing you in the hope that you will pass the test with flying colours because He has provided the answers long before.

I have been flipping my old not-worth-alot (in monetary terms) notebooks and I can only say to me, they are priceless. The few things I will risk my life to save when there is a fire. (haha) Looking for the ex-convictions which need to be rekindled. I find them there in the notebooks. I really thank God how i have faithfully written them down. Plus some things I write as a new believer then, is scarily pure and true.

I believe I am ready for more. Looking forward to document more of my life with you. :)

The LORD is my banner. Exodus 17:15

prayers. if you prayed for me to get well. thank you!

I dig out some of the best stuffs. QUOTES from my old notebook-

Believer's Gathering (25 nov 06) Dennis Loh on Sayings- We believe in God so much that's why we work so hard. We show our faith by showing through what we do.
James 2:18 But someone will say, "You have faith; I have deeds." Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by what I do.

Sermon (02 Dec 06) Eelee Tan on Breakdown The Walls- The size of your faith is what you take to give up.

Sermon (09 Dec 06) Pastor Jeff on How to Receive Miracles- Exalt God, not our failures. Exalting your failures is prideful.

Breakthrough Camp (11 Dec 06) Pastor David Chen- Do not Despise a small beginning.

Sermon (21 April 07) Pastor Shirley on Striving For Excellence- Setting ourselves as mediocre does not fit God's beliefs about our potential. Having average mind-sets means you are as close to the top as you are to the bottom.
Colossians 3:23 Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men

Sermon- (19 May 07) Pastor Ben on The Working of God's Strategy- Put pain in a larger perspective. Right in the place of darkness is where God is going to rescue you.

Sermon- (18 Aug 07) Pastor Jasmine on Getting Life on Track-Christianity is a showcase of everyday life.
Ecclesiates 12:13 Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the whole duty of man.

i love these quotes. a constant source of encouragements and reminders.



bear hugs

somebody came along today and told me i'll be a-okay. i think so too.
sometimes i feel like i am sprinting back home, sometimes i feel like i am just strolling along but for the longest time now i feel like i have been standing still trying to see beyond the horizon. you know, most of the time i am not doubting you. i am doubting me, myself. my brain has been feeding me a truckload of rubbish. After i try too hard, i feel like quitting. When i thought of quitting i know deep within this isn't my best shot. i did try, but not hard enough, not determined enough. these stirrings within have really made me a very unsound person. thanks to the bunchs around who have given me so much patience and grace because I am not at all patient when it comes to myself.

its one month and more. i am very tired.
i don't believe in defeat but sweet victory. I hope it's my own imagination but i know it's not. God says i will be victorious. This is the third time in a row. He said it, not me.

Increase my faith, give me faith that i may walk in your ways and never depart.



summer love



i caught 不能說的秘密 with my girls today.

i love the storyline :)
fairytale love like this don't happen in reality but i still believe in love in its own kind.
what steals my heart is jay displaying his piano skills.
the works of his fingers on the piano keys mesmerised me.
the piano battle to win- 'The Swan' scores, the duet with xiaoyu where they crossed hands and played, playing on 2 different pianos with his left and right hands and playing single-handedly on the piano behind him.

that takes my breath away.


while waiting for jo,sherli and mau to appear, we are really bored.
US plus jo, mau, sherli and jesse makes a extra loving caregroup.
school starts today! JIAYOU. :)



TO: daddy

they say home is where the heart is.
for a moment i wondered, did i misplaced my heart or have my heart wandered too far?
life is like a balancing act.
you learn to balance all that is at hand the moment you know you are living and alive.

while i pondered about how far i have allowed myself to drift from you, i begin to miss all the small things we do together. my daddy sings over me, speaks in whispers to me, teaches me the wisest things, we cross hundles, laugh out loud, run in freedom, we are playmates and the best buddies, he collects my tears and knows all my ugliest secrets. He loves me just the way i am but loves uncompromisingly and he loved me since a long time back.

i enjoyed the world i am in but i do not want to be too comfortable here. i thought of shanrui awhile back. she once reminded us that we wouldn't want to spend all we have decorating a hotel room when we know we are only going to spend a short time staying there. however, we will consider spending on a new home because we know we will be spending years staying there.
the world and its desires will pass away one day.

i want to get home. it's cold out here.
i am exchanging a stubborn heart, any traces of pride for a responsive heart and humility. today, you showed me the many things you loved dearly yet you chose to entrust them with me. you told me that you are able to restore. you told me where i can find you, where you will dwell. you reminded me to put you in the centre when i am searching for value in all the things i do, you reminded me to give thanks in the midst. you reminded me faith is trusting in you for who you are and not what i dont know.

oh well, daddy knows best :)

look, i am heading towards freedom.


the last weeks. thank God it's so happening. :)

organic tour on last tue with candy,bryan,aloy,jiaming
national library with jess last wed plus cg twister @carrie's home
tampines library myself on thur for daniel isn't talking and QT
shopping plus superb duck rice on a fri with candy,bryan,junhao,suhui.
airport,on mon. i miss the viewing mall plus studying there.
jalan kayu for lunch,on tue with aloy,liling,candy,bryan
i adore the last pic. for the past weeks, i live disoriented school life. i miss spending time with jess, junyao,dewen and debbie in a group. i miss the past ob project times. when i see this picture, it just reminds me of a sch-family portrait and for a first time, everyone is present in the picture. way to go :)



playmates

i love seeing this world in a new way :)

there's no haste, i am just taking my time to breathe.

we'll be playmates.

let's have some fun while the sun still shines.

i'll be away from this space.

goodbye.



organic farm tour :)


i had an adventure touring farms yesterday with my groupmates :)
thank God, the weather was good and we had a kind driver, Bryan, who brought us around on the expense of dirtying the car.

jiaming is really angmoh but can speak fluent chinese. well done :D

i am amazed by the speed i can write when the interview is going on with the supplier.

reasons to go organic.
1 free of artificial chemicals
organic agriculture involves no synthetic chemicals. Chemicals comsumed from food may lead to health problems of varying levels of seriousness.
2 protects the environment
synthetic chemicals accelerate growth of crop and increase crop yield. however, they erode the soil and contaminate the water. organic agriculture does not involve use of synthetic chemicals.
3 better taste
oragnic crops are planted according to the seasons and are harvested only when ripe. many believe that such agriculture following the natural rhythms of the earth's seasons result in superior taste.

i guess we all have to try for ourselves. :)

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