Wednesday, January 16, 2008
on and on
it has been years and i forgot when it started. it disturbs me everyday, different time in a day. most times it makes me depressed and many times it makes me u-g-l-y. when you grow up more and more, it makes you feel sick even if you are not sick. they are stubborn on me just like tattoo. i'm gonna head to the doctors. when i am well again. i will wear dresses every single day. :) recently, it gets me high looking at my new-found love, the little black book. it is still pretty much under construction and i can't wait for inspiration to come and for it to be done. i made friends with guitar today. i am so excited and for a moment i realised it wasn't so much as no-brainer as it looks. for a music idiot, it is surely not easy at all. but i had plenty of fun and surely some day i will just hug a guitar and worship God with it yay. i come to admire those who can play with music. although i guess its not my strength, i am having a hella lot of fun learning it. i feel happy having an old friend coming by just to say hi to me on the streets and having some good company while walking down the streets at night. i fall much more in love with justin timberlake. God just drops in surprises that blows me away. I searched high and low for mr billy graham's quote and was about to turn the national library upside tomorrow to find his quote when jeanette says she happened to chance upon the quote i wanted today. the laptop is almost fixed as i talked to dell almost everyday. printed some 10bucks worth of notes. no special mood for school. just wanna spend some time on friday with B1, B2, jialing and meifeng and a superb time of spiritual sharing with my bestie tmr night. life is so happening.
1:30:00 am captivated
Monday, January 07, 2008
where you will beschool begins today. B1 is away this week, B2 is always playing with me. for a moment i hope there will be someone who is frank with me, people who is ready to pull me aside, ask me tough questions, confront me. well, much expectations leads to much disappointment. I am pretty discouraged (but it will end here). =[ nevertheless, i am still looking forward, still have a deep desire to study hard and to do better this school term and also to include God in the picture. God just reminded me that any where is holy ground when He is in it. I pray Lord that my every moment i will be conscious of your presence. may every moment of joy include you, every moment of love include you, every moment of pain include you..
5:10:00 pm captivated
